MY PERSONAL BLOG AAAAAAA

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You can call me tiny apples or tiny nsfw on this blog because I keep my nsfw blog separate from my main blog! Anything’s fine, but I’m going to keep my real name anonymous for now. 

If you know me in real life and see this, please try not to judge me! I appreciate your willingness to understand and accept me no matter what I’m doing in my life, if you don’t like it then you can also just not talk to me about this specific thing, doesn’t mean we can’t still be friends! :) buuut it would come up at some point anyway haha ;;  since I’m not all that private about everything all the time lol

I don’t really know what to write here, but... the purpose of this blog is for my personal writings, not safe for work art, my nsfw hentai art that I am not comfortable sharing on my main blog, and my process of understanding myself and my body better. 

If it’s not clear already I’m an artist and I draw mostly cute and whimsical fantasy stuff at the school I go to for art (SVA nyc, art school),,, but I also have a more private, “darker” side of myself that appreciates horror, different genres besides fantasy that I’m not really used to, and more adult themed work.  I like drawing nsfw hentai on my free time but I’m very reserved about showing other people, with my own fears of being judged...being judged for my sexuality, sexual preferences  and tastes, or just the fact that I draw nudity and sex or sexual themes in general. 

it can also be  hard  for a professional standpoint, because porn is never really considered art, and I want to change that...because I fundamentally believe on many levels that having sex is nothing to be ashamed of!  The level of taboo in porn that people hate or dislike is totally understandable, and I agree, but I think there’s a difference between “erotic art” and “porn”, and though the two can often be similar, the point is everyone at some age grows to find their own sexuality, and it’s part of growing up and becoming an adult. There are people who have no interest in it anyway, or are asexual, and that’s fine too! as long as everyone can get along :)  but yea some of us are horny teenagers (horny adults to be specific) and that’s just life I guess hahaha 

 There’s no need to be ashamed of having sex, especially as a girl, because it can be hurtful when people call you things like “disgraceful” and “slutty”... I’ve grown up as a female with this misogyny all my life, and I don’t feel good about it. Women shouldn’t be ashamed of their existence. There is nothing “slutty” about your naked body.  There’s nothing wrong with being a girl. Everyone experiences womanhood differently, and that’s okay.   Though, violence and hate towards women really needs to end. But that’s a different topic all together... 

In terms of what I draw I like drawing all sexuality couples in nsfw, male x male, female x female, male x female etc. I appreciate different forms of gender expression  and I like drawing different sized bodies, since no ones body is the same. everyone  has a different type of body and it’s great! I personally really love drawing plus sized girls as a favorite category, or BBW, thicc girls, whatever you call it ;)

But I also like drawing thicc boys, skinny boys, skinny/thinner girls, feminine boys, masculine boys, masculine girls,  super traditionally feminine girls, different skin tones, different body proportions,  etc! :D

Also, this blog might include my ideas on possibly becoming a model for the art school I go to (SVA nyc), and doing nude modeling in the future if I can handle it.    But I’m not very good at sharing my body, especially naked, or even my face as I am very shy. Or at least camera shy. But I think I’m interested in trying to be more sexually open so idk.  If I do make content like that, just please try to remember to be open minded and stuff, and thanks for understanding!

The other topic I want to briefly mention is:

- fandoms I’m currently in? What do you call it?

- and kinks, fetishes, etc 

I really don’t have many specific or odd kinks, but in general, I like... erotic spanking, like smacking your ass if you know what I mean, bdsm to an extent, and butt plugs/anal and that’s about it. I am not into pee, I honestly think it’s extremely unsanitary and makes me a bit uncomfy, I don’t mind peeing in underwear in general but I’m not going to put it anywhere near my mouth thank you very much. I don’t kinkshame or judge anyone’s sexual preferences but I do have certain things that do make me feel uncomfortable, but again, no judge zone so don’t worry about that. I try to be a very open person :)

The reason why I enjoy spanking is because it makes me feel submissive or aroused, and the feeling of slight pain..,or like, tolerable pain,   makes a sensory reaction. Or at least a sexual, sensual reaction.  I don’t like blood or anything extreme, in fact blood is huge turn off (it baffles me how people can get off to blood, but again, I try not to judge anyone…). This is because of my anxiety and trauma around blood or at least seeing or talking about it.   

But I don’t mind slight bruises or marks in spanking, my pain tolerance is rather low because I haven’t had a chance to do it before properly. Not with someone else, and oddly enough not with myself yet, even though this is a big interest of mine so idk why I haven’t spanked myself hard already... I guess I’m just nervous at this moment in time...  but I am genuinely interested in  doing it :)

Fandoms, or whatever you call it. Soul Eater is my comfort anime and Death the Kid is my comfort character so expect to see a lot of art of that show haha.  I also like nichijou, Pokémon, animal crossing, panty and stocking, there might be some other anime but my brain is blank at the moment.  I really need to get into some new anime :) I might try my hero academia again, but honestly.  No offense to that show and those fans, but it wasn’t all that interesting to me at the beginning...  but it’s okay!  Maybe I need to give it another chance :) I really like fantasy stuff and weird stuff, for example Coraline... it’s hard to explain. The “weirdcore” “dreamcore” trend is exactly what I’m interested in in terms of storytelling. I really like that type of creepy trippy stuff for some reason.  

Update since I wrote this

Movies

- Jennifer’s body

- the substance 

- smile

- dark knight

- joker 2019

- the ring

- old boy (Korean version)

- birdman

- Barbie movie (w/ Margot Robbie)

- Scott pilgrim

- scream

- Prometheus 

- fantastic Mr fox

- Spider-Man into the spider verse

- I spit on your grave

- alien

Movies I want to watch

- hereditary

- parasite (Korean movie)

- a silent voice 

- stitches

- Megan

- flow

- a quiet place day one

Books

- Harry Potter (❤️ my childhood)

- little women

- Coraline

- hidden figures 

- the wind in the willows 

- my lesbian experience with loneliness

Anime

- serial experiments lain

- evangelion 

- soul eater

- my ordinary life/Nichijou

- puella magi madoka magica 

- sailor moon (original I grew up with ❤️)

- lucky star

- pokemon original anime

- miss kobayashi’s dragon maid

- sonny boy (was recommend to me, haven’t finish it yet)

- osomatsu-san

- attack on titan/shingeki no kyojin

- panty and stocking with garterbelt

- oreimo / my little sister can’t be this cute

- ouran high school host club

- onegai my melody

- full moon wo sagashite

- shugo chara

***keep in mind I haven’t finish watching every single anime on this list some are when I was a kid and some are recent and I have yet to watch the rest***

Comics/tv shows

- iCarly

- drake and josh

- rick and morty

- smiling friends

- Batman animated series

- joker (original standalone comic)

- Harley loves Joker (side comic series)

- the simpsons 

- adventure time

- midnight gospel

- stranger things

- bee and puppycat

- the moomins

***I may be forgetting stuff. Keep in mind some I am much more interested in than others and some are just stuff I’d like  to get into in general***

INTERESTS WHEN IT COMES TO SPICY/NSFW 🌶️ 

Will do

- anal and vaginal / double 

- spanking light or heavy 

- smacking the vagina mostly LIGHT haa.. 

- kissing / gentle “vanilla sex”

- light bondage

- gag / mouth restraint

- teasing / humiliation

- edging / orgasm control

- wedgie

- nipple tease / play 

Will be open to trying

- more intense vagina play/pussy punishment 

- pee in panties

- probably a no, but choking 

WILL NOT DO BY ANY MEANS NOOOOPEEEE

- blood

- scat

- heavy torture

- fisting (EWWW I really hate this one . It’s your whole hand  . Why not just use a dildo like wtf.. plus the knuckles!!! Shudder)

- a lot of pee everywhere (shower)

- gang bang

- cutting/knife play (basically same thing as blood)

- r*pe (WHY OH WHY DO PEOPLE CONSIDER A VIOLENT ACT TO WOMEN WHO ARE SUFFERING A “kink.” IT IS NOT A KINK IT IS AN ACT OF VIOLENCE AND MANY WOMEN WHO ARE ARE ALSO KILLED SO…. People need to stop getting off to this as a “fantasy” or a “fetish” it’s not normal. Some women may feel this way from trauma, after trauma and I get that, but most of the time it’s men who are playing this narrative acting like rpe is sexy or whatever it is not ok. It is the main issue women suffer from, 90% of rape victims are female, and yet men enjoy making it a sexual kink. And on top of that emphasize their 00.1 percent of men who are rped most likely by other men…. Sigh . They’re like “but what about the men who are raped?” Oh, really, the tiny percent of men and thats what is important right now hm? Yes of course if a guy experiences that everyone is going to provide him plenty of support, yes of course that is also a problem.  But they do that to diminish the giant number of women who are raped and ignore that it is mainly something women suffer from. And then make it sexy?? Like wtf?! I swear sometimes my eyes hurt from rolling them back in my head too far. I get so pissed about that , the little respect women esp  victims of rape get. We get no voice. It really sucks

And that’s the update - sorry if I wasn’t clear before on what I will and won’t do and also my list of interests lol

Okay, that’s all. Thanks for reading and please try to make constructive comments , instead of harsh or rude comments, though I guess I could just turn comments off or monitor them if needed. This is basically an intro post and I hope you’ll stick around if you want! See you later! ^-^